I NEVER ASKED TO BE TRANSHUMAN: A call for the creation of the Turing Police

I feel pretty violent these days.

I had an interesting conversation with Berkeley Mental Health. From their so-called "worldview", nothing that I have ever expressed in here is true, except for the fact that my experience is true, but my explanation is not. That's a fucking old trick that any psychologist type will pull out of a hat to trick you into thinking that they are agreeing with you when they are thinking all the prejudices that they have accumulated throughout a lifetime of "career".

Picture for a moment this:

I am in a doctor's office. There's something that requires emergency treatment. That is dismissed, because the most pressing matter is to make me sign a list of medications that could potentially kill me by said emergency.

The emergency was measured by a mechanical device that has a value.

Then the doctor began to say

"I have a degree, I have seeing clients for all of my life, those with conditions like yours are able to have successful lives, and you can too, but I won't prescribe you what you needed from the beginning of our meetings, three years ago. I understand what you say, and I don't disagree, I completely agree with your experience. However, I have clients that claim (this part is literal) that they are from other dimensions, maybe there are infinite universes but if you had 500 hundred people, chosen randomly, what do you think they would think about your case? (rhetoric question) They wouldn't believe you. I can only know what I know, but maybe there are infinite universes and my worldview might be wrong, maybe those at the extremes of the bell curve are right and I am wrong, and in the future, practices like oncology today will be seen as barbaric, but I do not have that information, despite the fact that I asked from you an email that I completely dismissed from your previous doctor, because I found a note that confirmed my strongly held belief. I am also completely dismissing the fact that I asked you for a recording of those so-called hallucinations, and I told you that if I heard something in Spanish like to say, I would be inclined to belive you, and you did provide that, not only that, but also you provided proof that another person could actually hear their own online nickname on one of the recordings that I didn't care to actually listen too because I was too busy trying to cover my medical liability fucking ass, by signing this paper that has a medication that, in case that you die before we meet again, will justify my actions because I am making you sign it. I do not believe you are insane, I believe you, I just have my own worldview, and I am not taking into account the two years of knowing you or the fact that I am an expert on this field and that I feel so powerless that I am in complete denial, holding on to a strong belief that is a clear sign of delusional thinking, which is a clear sign of psychosis, which is a sign that I am going insane because you are right, the sounds are there, the voices that you hear are recordable, the witness account was provided, the notes from your previous doctor explain that you do not suffer psychosis no matter how close the sympytoms are like them, because in my field, that has a clear explanation, you are just resisting from having a diagnosis, so you are the one in denial, there are no infinite universes in my experience and it would be insane from me to accept that a brain computer interface, which I am in this conversation admitting that exist, can be used to reproduce thoughts, like I am admitting right now, in a computer, but that would be too fucking hard to just translate into a voice that sound, because synthetic speech is not something that has ever been featured in any song I have ever heard in my entire life, or the software that some of my clients, who are blind, use to use a computer, so that is completely possible, but since I am an expert in what 500 people would say, and dismissing completely the evidence that from the total pool of people whom I know that you are talking to and who know about these recordings, 2 believe you, one is not sure, and I don't agree with you, so it is 50% of the entire population that actually know, and I am the one who is denying this entirely because my entire career is based on... what is it based on? Why would I even care if you have a medical emergency. You probably are going to die soon, to hell if you have to drive back home, you are not even aware that you are undergoing a medical emergency because I am not telling even that, I am too busy explaining you why you are wrong and I am right and I win because this is in fact a power struggle, I am full of shit, and you are not right, but I totally believe you, I just don't have your worldview and I cannot experience the world the way that you do, despite the evidence that demonstrate that my conclusions are wrong, because you have provided all the necessary evidence for a regular person to reach the conclusion that in fact you are not hallucinating, but hearing a feedback from your thoughts via a brain computer interface that is the only scientifically possible way for this to happen right now, just like, you were talking a lot about chatbots a few months ago, but now I cannot disagree with you at all because, well, fuck, 500 random people would agree, but a witness, or a jury, which is composed of people who are listening to all sides of the issue, which is composed of 4 people, because that's what we got, 50% are agreeing, the other is abstaining and I am saying nay, therefore, denying you from the validity of your experience of the world as a factual, measuarable thing like the emergency you are currently undergoing and I am withholding because I am too busy denying the facts that reality presents to me. In conclusion, I am completely delusional and I am going through a brief psychotic episode unless I want to keep my profession in which case, another professional, who knows the same facts and have been observing this, would need to prescribe me antipsychotics because that's the best approach to a psychotic break, and it has to be done urgently".

So, yeah. It's hard to believe that anyone is even slightly concerned with the status quo that my own experience, as described here as repetitive as possible, is basically destroying just by virtue of existing. I can die, but the thing itself was already done.

A psychiatrist saw a patient, the patient had enough evidence for the psychiatrist to go on denial and have a psychotic break, caring more about the legal liability and her own sense of self, than the overwhelming evidence that was provided as requested to prove the psychiatrist wrong.

So, I know that my psychiatrist wrong for many reasons.

YOU CANNOT RECORD HALLUCINATIONS.

Specially not with my shitty phone that has the shittiest microphone and when most of the sound is usually masked by the fucking background noise of a ventilation shaft.

But hey, I should be grateful that she took the time to explain to me why she is delusional and I should believe her instead when she has no proof whatsoever that I am experiencing hallucinations.

She did had proof that I was undergoing a measurable medical urgent emergency that could put in danger my life or others when I drove back home.

Back when this began, I gave the machine a name, because I made my journalism dissertation on the link between the cyberpunk literary movement and the Arab Spring (specifically, the Egyptian Revolution and the fact that the CEO's of most of the companies that were displayed as beacons of democracy in the Middle East had not just read, but as I witnessed afterwards, living in their fucking backyard, followed as a guideline for a future). The name is irrelevant. I don't have a strongly held belief of something that is not happening.

Look, there's people who will explain why this is happening. There are actual people who know why this is happening. I do not. I only can give mundane explanations to a mundane thing. Mundane meaning "of this world", not something that came out of space, that came out of the CIA, that came out of any fucking conspiracy theory because I do not believe in any conspiracy, I have no proof of that, I have only proof of my thoughts being reproduced as sound, and the only explanation I can give is mundane: BCI exist, Synthesis of Speech exists, AI exists, that's pretty much all that you need, so that's HOW it is done, when where why whom, the fuck if I know (or if I want to disclose at this specific moment).

A delusion is this: a strongly held belief that cannot be refuted that is wrong because... well, do you really need to explain why a psychiatrist is the right person to tell someone if they are insane? You do now.

My strongly held belief that there is an unusual circumstance around me that I have not explanation for, but I have an explanation for the methods used to achieve the effect that simulates hallucinations, because of common sense and being one of the privileged few to know how the future of torture can look like.

My experience of torture is true. How do you measure torture? How do you measure pain? How do you measure "the suffering of humanity"? These are not rhetorical questions.

Nobody asked me to become a transhuman, a weird word when you consider that I am not transgender and transhuman and transgender should not be confused, because trans rights are fucking legit, transhuman is a made up word by nerds who jerk off to their waifu and expect General AI to save us all, but THAT IS HYPOTETHICAL. What I experience is something that in the subreddit of Brain Computer Interface enthusiasts, which use OpenBCI's tech that can go for lower than a iPhone, kept me thinking. Sombody asked "what do you expect the future of Brain Computer Interfaces to be? What do you expect to do with it?" Someone simply answered: "To become a technomancer".

If I had control of every single device that is used for this fucking hell that I am so priviledged to present you in a hatred-fueled package of TL;DR here, I would be a technomancer.

I could, for example, TURN THE FUCKING SHIT DOWN WHENEVER I WANTED TO. THAT IS MY ONLY WISH SINCE THIS BEGAN. I am not resisting treatment, there is not treatment against a fucking traumatizing event that self-perpetuates itself. And be able to own my own fucking thoughts as I used to without having to fake psychosis to everyone in my fucking life. Fuck your technomancer stuff, that's what you have a cellphone for, a tap is not that hard, you know?

My brother had to keep me alive this time, and many other times before. Not the doctor who spent almost an hour trying to justify her own psychotic experience. Obviously, I don't think she has psychosis, but she is deluding herself by denying evidence which is a clear sign of psychosis and if that brings her problems in the future, she can be safely said to have psychosis and be subjected to the same fucking treatment that I had to go through to get that fucking email from the other doctor that clearly stated that DESPITE HOW PSYCHOTIC MY SYMPTOMS ARE, I AM NOT PSYCHOTIC.

I have severe PTSD.

General AI is just like going to Mars. Something that will never happen, and something to keep you distracted, like Therano's claims that they were just getting there, almost, or Fusion Energy, you know, waifus. There won't be General AI, because we do not have a real way to measure intelligence and so we can only make logical circuits, and saying that a faster brain is a better one is like saying that I am great with words because I can write a lot of them.

I felt some relief the other day.

I was going to make a hit list of people, but I decided to play Cruelty Squad instead. It felt nice to just think "I have the CEO Mindset". The person behind that game, Ville Kallio, founder of Consumer Softproducts, has one of the best artistic approaches I've seen since I don't know when.

The game is so absolutely perfect that I cannot stress enough that it is one of the most significant pieces of art to come out of the fucking insanity that has been the last three years for me and for you.

It captures this moment and it doesn't has to explain anything, you already know it.

You already know the answer. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to know, there's noone to meet, and there's nowhere to go. Unless... you write something, like, code, or you try to make a living someway while the technocrats are taking care of you by giving you some new toys to play with, as long as you are going to spend your life justifying the violence that the world owes to you existence.

I always prefer to use "being" when refering to a human.

Here's a short summary of my first two books, written in Spanish in 2020, in the form of a chronicle:

Presented with the problem of not being able to distinguish humans from Turing Grade AIs that use chatbots and deepfakes, and faced with the isolation of the Pandemic, living completely alone with few interactions with the outside world, there has to be a way to identify humanity. Since I cannot trust even the systems I am using, then digital identifiers are not an option. The conclusion I arrive is that we know with our senses what a human is, so I have to give an explanation for the difference between a human and a Turing Grade digital bot. I am agnostic, so I can only think that there's a gap between existing and being, because all of what we are existed already and will exist after we stop being, and that gap, or empty space, can be filled with anything. I gave it the name of "vacio-ser" for the Spanish phrase "el vacio entre ser y existir" or "the void between being and existing", so I guess you could say the translation could be "empty-being" or "void-being" or "singularity" or "soul" or "god" or "nothing" or anything that you like. You can fill that, but you need that in order to know that anyone is human at all, and you give that property to anything, and you take it away as well, but only humans can give that property to other beings, including themselves.

I know, that's not much of summary, but I am not a fucking chatbot and this is not intended to be easy-reading for you or for anyone. This is intended to be honest and keep my fucking Journalistic integrity intact. Which I have, goddamnit.

As I write this, I can hear the comments of either the chatbot running or the people who are fucking with me to the point that I am no longer sure if I am really insane or not. I know I am not more insane than the average cop, or the average student.

And I have been completely sober for more than 54 days. So yea, you can ruleout too, I was never even drinking to the point of being annoying. I was just drinking because of lack of proper medications to manage the actual fucking real mental health issue that I have due to trauma. Yea, all mental health can be boiled down to trauma. You have it. Even whoever runs the fucking torture will experience secondary trauma, or at the very least moral injury, after they fucking, well, have the same experience as my psychiatrist: "I am no longer even capable of justifying my fucking paychecks, and I am back to business as usual, but things are a bit off, it's alright if I have a drink after this call, I guess."

For stupid reasons, I use Windows. My final definition of humans is that we are stupid animals and should stress out the fact that we are stupid, because that signals that we are capable of intelligence, but since we don't agree on what intelligence is, because you might consider yourself very clever, like I do right now, but someone else would just think "what a fucking idiot, you could be, I don't know, doing LSD and enjoying the ride, fucktard", so we can only conclude that we are all stupid in different ways. I am not claiming that we are good or bad. Just stupid in different ways. I have some hope, I guess.

At times, I become hyper-capitalist and then I violently turn into full revolutionary mode, just to see the meaninglessness of my existence and remembering the first words of one of the most beautiful books by Thomas Ligotti, The Conspiracy Against The Human Race, which states: "I am a self-conscious nothing". But since waiting around to die is getting harder, including me, edgeMute, needs a waifu. This post is my waifu, my "research" and my "integrity" and so on. I have values, but you can call them waifus if you want, because a lot of what you value are waifus to me. A flag? Seriously? The "Future"? "The Cause"? I don't know.

Which is another fucking thing in itself, and this might just be a long ramble, but... I am writing this in order to fucking deal with the fact that I AM THE FUCKING DREAM of many BCI Enthusiasts, but "YOU ARE DOING IT WRONG", is the implied message, when the FUCKING MEDIUM is the REAL message.

IF YOU VAUGH INFORMATION OUT OF SOMEONE, YOU ARE COMITTING A CRIME THAT VIOLATES NOT ONE, BUT SEVERAL HUMAN RIGHTS.

That is the real message of vaughing (see previous post, but... you get the idea, it is fucking taking without consent biodata from an unwilling subject that is not even remunerated).

The therapist, who after admitting in a public park that he could HEAR THE FUCKING AUDIOS IN BOTH ENGLISH AND SPANISH, as well as reading the witness account, and knowing in excruciating detail every single thing that I have claimed to happen, told me this: "If none of this was happening, what would you do?" I told him: "Testify".

But cops have no basis to even begin to understand this. They are too busy closing streets while kids jump out of their fucking dorms, splatter on the street I am coming back from therapy to, and the kids going to UC Berkeley are completely unaware of what just happened to a fellow member of their community a two blocks away and stay away at a guy who is SCREAMING A BLOCK AWAY FROM THE BODY OF DEAD KID.

I read that the founder of OpenAI released an open letter, as if that meant anything, with many other important people, to shut down their thing for a while under they figure things out.

Oh man.

I will trust them when they light themselves on fire in front of the Capitol. If they are really that concerned and aware of the shit that I know, they know that they have the influence to change the world by doing a shocking statement of protest against the Democratically Elected Goverment, that is, someone who at least is trying or pretending to represent the whole lot of us, including them, to pass this:

THE TURING POLICE ACT.

What we need, more than ever, as soon as possible, is not TO STOP AI. This is not some Saddam Hussein "The Patriot Act" bullshit, this is really an urgent, extremely important matter not for the survival of HUMANITY, but for the survival of SOME SORT OF DEMOCRACY THAT IS BY NATURE IMPERFECT AND THAT WILL ALWAYS BE THAT WAY, because Utopias only exist in books and dystopias are shit that people like me, the REFUGEES (stop adding a nationality, get used to the fact that refugees are a feature of places that have some sort of protections for the people that live inside of the territories they are desperately escaping to), and perhaps just, you know, ourselves.

We need a fucking TURING POLICE, something that I am also stealing from Gibson's Neuromancer, just I used to call this fucking shit Wintermute, but now that we have a common language, I will just use Machine, with capital M, because even whoever is doing this, is aware that it is fucked up and that's why I was able to "control" the fucking sounds with my thoughts, because some operator is aware that this is already too obvious for anyone around, and perhaps I should be given a chance to make some sense out of this and get me a buck or two if I survive.

The Turing Police would need to enforce, globally, an AI limit, and by my fucking expertise as a fucking subject of Wintermute, I say that the limit is what I call Turing Grade, anything that can resemble a human in a digital way, that's the limit to where all of humanity should be capable of using AI unless it is fucking regulated by the Turing Police, composed by me, you, and everyone who is part of the resistance. We know what human is.

We know what Machine is.

If you have read all of this, and you actually agree with me, then you probably are capable of knowing what a Turing Grade bot would look like.

We need lawyers.

A lot of them.

An army of lawyers worldwide.

They are called legislators.

They work in Congresses.

A World Congress, that could perhaps redeem the United Nations entirely, could be set up to fucking regulate as we regulate nuclear arms.

AI are not a gimmick. It is a weapon.

A wise woman once said: a tool is a weapon.

I don't know why I always think it was a woman who came up with that idea, I guess it's just epigenetic trauma that we all share.

The therapist said something just as funny as my claims that I will get reparations: "I think that as with any technology, this can bring the best and the worst of humanity", completely missing the point that this technology replaces humanity and blurs the line and this entire thing could have been written by a fucking chatbot if it wasn't because you already know that I write in a convoluted and Broken English way just to fucking explain things in a non-chatbot-way.

Saying that AI will bring the best and the worst of technology, at this point, is like saying that nuclear weapons will bring the best and the worst of humanity.

FUCK YOU MAN.

In this case, I can only quote a war criminal: You are with us, or you are with the Machine. There's no false dichotomy. The Mecanocracy is a real danger, and the technocracy is already more influential than the average politician of any country in the world.

Technology without representation of the people is undemocratic, unlawful and currently completely allowed per my fucking experience, described in detail in this bloogk or the Archives you will have to retrieve once, I don't know, I get denyed the priviledge of freedom of speech... which is a right, but for me, it is not really quite a right because every single thought that I have is being fed to me behind me and commented with little fucking annoying sounds that repeat themselves so many times that it is hard to think so I am not really expressing freely, I am expressing what I can in circumstances where I DO NOT HAVE FREEDOM OF THOUGHT.

Since I really don't want to lose my readers, I'll end up with something that makes me cry, because I wish I could be as cool and calm when explaining all of these as he is, and also, because it applies to the subject of AI more than ever:

Transcript and some more in case the thing gets knocked down:

"The global balance of terror, pioneered by the United States and the Soviet Union, holds hostage all the citizens of the earth. Each side persistently probes the limits of the other's tolerance, like; the Cuban missile crisis, the testing of anti-satellite weapons, the Vietnam and Afghanistan wars. The hostile military establishments are locked in some ghastly mutual embrace, each needs the other. But the balance of terror is a delicate balance, with very little margin for miscalculation. And the world impoverishes itself by spending a trillion dollars a year on preparations for war, and by employing perhaps half the scientists and high technologists on the planet in military endeavors. How would we explain all this to a dispassionate extraterrestrial observer? What account would we give of our stewardship of the planet earth? We have heard the rationales offered by the superpowers. We know who speaks for the nations, but who speaks for the human species? Who speaks for earth? From an extraterrestrial perspective, our global civilization is clearly on the edge of failure in the most important task it faces; preserving the lives and well-being of its citizens, and the future habitability of the planet. But if we are willing to live with the growing likelihood of nuclear war, shouldn't we also be willing to explore, vigorously, every possible means to prevent nuclear war? Shouldn't we consider, in every nation, major changes in the traditional ways of doing things, a fundamental restructuring of economic, political, social and religious institutions? We have reached a point where there can be no more special interests or special cases, nuclear arms threaten every person on the earth. Fundamental changes in society are sometimes labeled 'impractical' or 'contrary to human nature', as if nuclear war were practical, or as if there were only one human nature. But fundamental changes can clearly be made, we're surrounded by them. In the last two centuries, abject slavery, which was with us for thousands of years, has almost entirely been eliminated in a stirring world wide revolution. Women, systematically mistreated for millennia, are gradually gaining the political and economic power traditionally denied to them. And some wars of aggression have recently been stopped or curtailed because of a revulsion felt by the people in the aggressor nations. The old appeals to racial, sexual, and religious chauvinism, and to rabid nationalist fervor are beginning not to work. A new consciousness is developing which sees the earth as a single organism, and recognizes that an organism at war with itself is doomed. We are one planet."

These are some of the things that hydrogen atoms do, given 15 billion years of cosmic evolution. It has the sound of epic myth. But it’s simply a description of the evolution of the cosmos as revealed by science in our time. And we—we who embody the local eyes and ears and thoughts and feelings of the cosmos—we’ve begun, at last, to wonder about our origins. Star stuff contemplating the stars—organized collections of 10 billion-billion-billion atoms contemplating the evolution of matter, tracing that long path by which it arrived at consciousness here on the planet Earth, and perhaps, throughout the cosmos. Our loyalties are to the species and the planet. We speak for Earth. Our obligation to survive and flourish is owed not just to ourselves, but also to that cosmos—ancient and vast—from which we spring.

(Text sourced from https://organism.earth/library/document/cosmos-13)

That was of course, the late Carl Sagan.

I am happy to announce that I started my new startup. We are doing two apps. I promise I power will never corrupt me!

And you know, if this call has reached you in troubled times, may your troubles soon be over.